Tiring week

The week is not yet over but I'm tired already. Schedule's full this week and I'm dead tired. My feet feels numb and painful. instead of me getting some rest even for a day I haven't or rather the day where I planned to rest got ruined by someone who doesn't act like his age. To make it short he's really an idiot. He's doesn't use that brain. It's really frustrating to deal with him most of the times. I admit I'm to practical but that keeps me sane and feel secure. I've outgrown the days when I don't think or not plan things ahead. Having a safety net or plan b keeps me less stressed because I know there's something I can fall back to.
Times like now,  today,  you have to learn how to control. Less of this, learn to say no. It maybe hard in the beginning but is something that is important to know and do. You can't forever live that way. People aren't always going to be there for you,  maybe that sounds harsh for some but when times get rough those people you call friends will choose what's important to them and chances are you're not on the top of their list.
It's really sad, he's hardworking but he doesn't know how to manage well. More sad, is that I have to deal with it because he doesn't listen. He refuses to listen. 
I pray that it doesn't last long. It adds more to my stress and me closer to death.

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HappyNervousSad

Mostly what I've felt today aside from the normal body pains and aches, and headache. Happy because I've been applying to hospitals, I followed up she said she'll be calling either yesterday or today...
Nervous because of the wait, am I hired or not. It's either thank you for applying, better luck next time. Or, congratulations you're hired time to start a new chapter in work life.
Sad because working at SNF where majority of the patients are in long term care, and someone expires, can't help but make you feel sad, and makes you wanna cry. She's like your adopted granma even with her always confused state and incoherent mumbling, slapping you for no reason at all. So tiny and light, that my 5 foot self can carry her back to bed. I'll miss my halmeoni... She's in heaven now, with all the angels...

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Ice Water

Geh, it's been awhile again.  I haven't posted in awhile due to circumstances.  But now I can start ranting here again.  Hahaha!
Back again with job hunting. Working right now as a case manager but my mind and body's overworked and not well compensated. I don't mind working the extra hours and not get paid as long as the extra effort I do is appreciated but it's not. Aside from that it's like you're expected to do super extra work.
I'm tired. Im super super tired. I leave early, get shouted at by demanding patients and doctors who think home health is at their beck and call, and get home super late. This isn't what I signed up for.  As soon as I get an opening, I'm outta there. Just another poorly written rant.

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