So again from the previous post about Kindle Unlimited and Nook. I don't know how the Kindle works but I'm guessing at least the author gets something from their books being borrowed, but buying it outright ebook or paperback I guess they get more from it (???), maybe.
Anyway one of the few things I like about the ebook borrowing from Kindle is connected to my pet peeve regarding how the story is written.
For those who do read, you know that there are different types or something like that on how the author write the story. I'm not really a fan of the his or her view type where the character narrates the whole chapter. It kinda annoys me at times so knowing that the book is written that way I don't waste money and just return/don't read the book at all.
Sometimes (or maybe most of the times) I don't really like simpering heroines... they don't sound much of a heroines to me but useless characters xD! I don't mind damsels in distress but not weak and stupid. X.x that after reading 1 or 2 chapters, if ever I do have the paperback I would return it. Thankfully some ebooks offer the first chapters to read.
Ah and because my thought are disorganized atm I'll jump to the fact that because of the books I'm ruined to any man hahaha!!!
Yes I know they're just books but it makes me sad that they're not real and if ever there are men like them... zomgah where are they hiding?
With that I go start reading again xD
Showing posts with label numb and dead. Show all posts
Showing posts with label numb and dead. Show all posts
Wednesday, March 23, 2016
Book peeves
Pocketbook addict
I really started young, maybe around 9 or 10 years old. I remember a bit that I started with Sweet Valley Kids, then High, then Nancy Drew, Hardy Boys, R.L Stine's books (which for a kid is effin' creeptastic) and from there romance novels (which is bad considering I was a teen hahaha!!!)
I never get tired of reading them, maybe one story is the same from another author but still engaging for me the same.
I've read thousands already, seriously my Nook alone mostly have a thousand already and that doesn't include the ones I've bought and borrowed through the years.
One of the few regrets I have is that when I was still in high school I've read this book probably published during the 90's by Diamond Publishing ( os something like that). It's a series, much like Sweet Valley about school life of girls in a dormitory. My school library had 2 or 3 of the books but sadly not all of them. I want to finish the series but again it was years ago, I don't remember the title just the premise of the series, I tried googling the company (sadly again...) it was already closed and not a lot of information is available through it. Sadly, sadly, sadly not a super detective like Drew and the Hardy bros.
Anywho, I have most probably abused Nook in a way that I have been spending too much per month. The stupid me didn't acknowledge that it's competitor Amazon Kindle had introduced their unlimited books for 10 buckaroo per month... ugh that's waaaaaay less than what I spend.
I'll talk about support and pet peeves maybe in my next post if I remember but for now I'm feeling happy... elated... and much more xD that I could afford my addiction to books. Hey :P at least it's not drugs or some other vice xD
Friday, March 11, 2016
On getting sick
I don't get sick often, not rare but uncommon. The most would be a cough then would go away in a few days, 3 at most. Unfortunately for me, this time around my defense was down.
At first it started with my sister coughing around, then my mom but after that has passed I got scotch free. A few weeks later I started to get the cough but before it gets worse I took prevention like drinking more Vitamin C and stuff. During this time I'm still working as it's not bad. But after I went home after a shift my body just crashed. I'm not having any fever because I've been drinking Tylenol for body aches but I'm basically coughing weirdly (whistling cough), having shortness of breath, and literally puking phlegm (yes it is gross).
Sadly getting an appointment with my primary would take weeks so I went to a clinic.
I tried not to laugh my ass off because I was coughing up a storm. Hacking whistling coughs non-stop. When the doctor came in she was wearing a N95 mask. (Usually used for TB patients). I'm like wtf... but then when the doctor heard me up close and not through doors that's when she noticed my weird coughing and after some assessments diagnosed me with Bronchitis.
I'm not surprised since this isn't my first time with it. I already figured it out when the puking started. Almost every 2-3 years I'll have an attack like this though this. Though when it does it's not very kind. And I have multiple embarrassing incidents because of it. This time around I hid so I'm safe.
For those who aren't familiar with Bronchitis, I'll save you the googling. It's when bronchioles are inflamed, closing up with phlegm and coughs, sometimes accompanied by an infection. Majority is viral so antibiotics won't do shit.
So my doctor gave me an inhaler, Zomgah I almost cried because I kid you not, I really can't breathe like I'm drowning. And just in case to cover that minority, prescribed me an antibiotic. Plus I can continue my Tylenol Cold Max and Vit C supplement.
So far my disease experience this time around...
- The feeling of drowning without being underwater
- coughing up a storm to scare the shit out of my parents
- feeling like a rooster waking up everyone at 3-4 am, coughing up for at least 30 mins (I'm not joking, thankfully that stopped yesterday)
- Used up 18 boxes of tissue, no I'm not taking about those small boxes, and still counting. When I say puking, I really am.
- As much as I want to run to the sink, coughing/puking every 5 mins, add the fact that I'm having shortness of breathe plus feeling weak. It's the best alternative for me. Really weak that I had to wrestle the cover off a box
- Having to change the waste basket lining up to 3 times per day, and that includes me already stuffing/pushing in the trash more
- Covered up in vaporub and sweat, being unable to shower properly because I can't catch a chill or the fits will start
- The fits will also start with any irritants, I had to hold and cover when opening the corrugated side of the tissue box and sometimes my throat feels like there's dust in the water... oh ugh even the tissue, I get no escape. The little, tiniest, insy wincy specks of paper
- I'm also puking food with so much pressure when I cough
- poor appetite, my sugar's whacked (I am diabetic)
- sleep deprived
- missed days of work which means I don't get paid
There's more that I probably missed but as usual I am already blabbering.
I am being shown no mercy and hopefully I get better soon. I have missed taking care of myself, my face is hairy.
In a weird coincidence, every time someone calls me I'm in the middle of a coughing fit
Friday, February 12, 2016
Another road block or a bump
I guess when the time that you don't feel like going to work, that is the time you try to find a new one. I love doing what I'm doing but my current one leaves me battered both physically and mentally, and leaves my patience glass to always empty every shift. Some can handle this but I'm feeling like jumping to something else less demanding.
They kept telling me I'm young but I feel ancient. No motivation to work, not counting the fact that almost everyone needs a paycheck.
I still have a contract with my work ): sadly a couple more months... Hopefully I got a transfer soon...
Thursday, October 8, 2015
Absurdity...
Called in sick today because I injured my wrist, sprained or pulled a muscle... whatever... I can type and move my fingers but it hurts when I put pressure or lift things. Yes even opening/closing doors.
I heal fast, as long as I get to rest the wrist. It's like having leg cramps, lasts awhile but I'll be fine after a day or two. I'm only asking to be called off tonight since after this shift I'll be back Sunday or Monday night, just enough days to get it back to working condition. I'm not asking to be off for 3 days. I find it absurd to have a MD's note for a day and it's giving me a headache thinking about it.
Seriously that charge nurse has some power issues. I like to rub in her face my doctor's note when I see her next.
Thursday, June 18, 2015
Tiring week
The week is not yet over but I'm tired already. Schedule's full this week and I'm dead tired. My feet feels numb and painful. instead of me getting some rest even for a day I haven't or rather the day where I planned to rest got ruined by someone who doesn't act like his age. To make it short he's really an idiot. He's doesn't use that brain. It's really frustrating to deal with him most of the times. I admit I'm to practical but that keeps me sane and feel secure. I've outgrown the days when I don't think or not plan things ahead. Having a safety net or plan b keeps me less stressed because I know there's something I can fall back to.
Times like now, today, you have to learn how to control. Less of this, learn to say no. It maybe hard in the beginning but is something that is important to know and do. You can't forever live that way. People aren't always going to be there for you, maybe that sounds harsh for some but when times get rough those people you call friends will choose what's important to them and chances are you're not on the top of their list.
It's really sad, he's hardworking but he doesn't know how to manage well. More sad, is that I have to deal with it because he doesn't listen. He refuses to listen.
I pray that it doesn't last long. It adds more to my stress and me closer to death.
Tuesday, June 16, 2015
SYTYCD Stage VS Street Part 2: New Format
I talk/type too much at times, and just have to put my take on the new format.
So unlike with the past seasons, they changed the format this season (I guess to shake things up) to Stage VS Street dancing. Styles like ballroom, contemporary, tap, jazz and other with formal training will be categorized as stage They're going head to head against Street which includes a variety of street dances from hiphop, krumping, breakdancing, and etc.
10 from each will be chosen for the top 20 and each will be lead by an all-star from previous season. Travis Wall will lead the Team Stage, while Twitch will lead Team Street.
This format as far as I've been reading on some site were I guess not happily accepted? Well it's either that or they just don't like change. For me, let's see how this one goes first because I do find a couple of pros and cons on this.
As we all know from the past season, they take at least one of the best dancer in that specific style to make it more diverse. Ballet, ballroom, hiphop, jazz, contemporary, tap, etc. And as you have noticed, the stage side is dominating most of the slots in the top 20.
With the new format, what they used to pick as 15~18 spots for Stage dancers, the competition between them will be more fierce as the spots for them to be filled up is a little less halved than what it used to be. So far with the auditions from Dallas, Memphis, Detroit and Los Angeles, there's really a lot of very talented stage dancers. Though most of those I've seen are ballroom and contemporary.
Good news in a way for the Street styled dancers because of what we used to see in the past seasons of having 5 or less ( I guess xD), they have now a higher chance to get into the top 20 because there are more spots offered to them. It's an opportunity for them to showcase their style of dance to more people, and let it be known. And not just introduced to us from a music video. xD! They've also been given the chance to go further because during the Vegas week, they'll only be introduced to choreographies similar to their dance style. BUT that's where I would guess most of them will be stunned, stumped and challenged. They have several challenges on this competition and right off the bat is choreography. Most of them dance freestyle, depending on the person, s/he may/may not put up with the challenge. Those who have tried before got into Vegas again has an advantage in a way because they've experienced it. And another, is maybe partnering. They dance on their own, doing their own thing, being paired with someone may throw some of them out of their comfort zone. The two maybe the main challenges street will encounter and many more I would guess.
With the past format, 10 guys and girl s are chosen to fill the spots for 20, and every week a couple is voted out. I don't know if they're going 5 guys and girls from each or just 10/10, and one from each will be voted off.
There's still the NY auditions and Vegas week, ( I think) before we all see how the format changed the formal competition. Still watching the series since i haven't really felt the change during audition, maybe well see more during vegas week and the formal competition.
Continue reading...
So unlike with the past seasons, they changed the format this season (I guess to shake things up) to Stage VS Street dancing. Styles like ballroom, contemporary, tap, jazz and other with formal training will be categorized as stage They're going head to head against Street which includes a variety of street dances from hiphop, krumping, breakdancing, and etc.
10 from each will be chosen for the top 20 and each will be lead by an all-star from previous season. Travis Wall will lead the Team Stage, while Twitch will lead Team Street.
This format as far as I've been reading on some site were I guess not happily accepted? Well it's either that or they just don't like change. For me, let's see how this one goes first because I do find a couple of pros and cons on this.
As we all know from the past season, they take at least one of the best dancer in that specific style to make it more diverse. Ballet, ballroom, hiphop, jazz, contemporary, tap, etc. And as you have noticed, the stage side is dominating most of the slots in the top 20.
With the new format, what they used to pick as 15~18 spots for Stage dancers, the competition between them will be more fierce as the spots for them to be filled up is a little less halved than what it used to be. So far with the auditions from Dallas, Memphis, Detroit and Los Angeles, there's really a lot of very talented stage dancers. Though most of those I've seen are ballroom and contemporary.
Good news in a way for the Street styled dancers because of what we used to see in the past seasons of having 5 or less ( I guess xD), they have now a higher chance to get into the top 20 because there are more spots offered to them. It's an opportunity for them to showcase their style of dance to more people, and let it be known. And not just introduced to us from a music video. xD! They've also been given the chance to go further because during the Vegas week, they'll only be introduced to choreographies similar to their dance style. BUT that's where I would guess most of them will be stunned, stumped and challenged. They have several challenges on this competition and right off the bat is choreography. Most of them dance freestyle, depending on the person, s/he may/may not put up with the challenge. Those who have tried before got into Vegas again has an advantage in a way because they've experienced it. And another, is maybe partnering. They dance on their own, doing their own thing, being paired with someone may throw some of them out of their comfort zone. The two maybe the main challenges street will encounter and many more I would guess.
With the past format, 10 guys and girl s are chosen to fill the spots for 20, and every week a couple is voted out. I don't know if they're going 5 guys and girls from each or just 10/10, and one from each will be voted off.
There's still the NY auditions and Vegas week, ( I think) before we all see how the format changed the formal competition. Still watching the series since i haven't really felt the change during audition, maybe well see more during vegas week and the formal competition.
Friday, May 15, 2015
The Amazing Race Season 26 Finale!!!
During the time I was watching the episode I have to admit that I forgot that I had a migrane xD! Talk about distraction right? xD
I have been since day 1 (episode 1) been rooting for the blind dates. First of all it's because it's a win or lose situation. 2 people seeking a relationship (or love for that matter) joined the race, it's like a recipe for disaster relationship wise. We all know (TAR fans...) how stressful being on show, and the fact that you're joining the race with someone you don't know and have to learn how to (sorry I forgot the word) be with that person.
The first part of the race is that blind date couple's are kickin' ass, meaning they took most of the top place. You have to admire, for some of them, knowing that they didn't find sparks or whatever they're looking for their blind date or dream person, concentrated on the race. I forgot who said it or from where I read it before, but s/he said that being in a blind date vs couple is to their advantage because since they aren't in a preexisting relationship they don't have anything to lose (except for the million dollars if they lose). For couple's the stakes are higher because after the race their relationship may either blossom or break.
I was a bit disappointed in one team that the other person, knowing yea s/he isn't loosing anything, didn't finish the competition or lost the will or whatever. Ugh, it's the Amazing Race, it's not a dating show, though they did try their hand at it. It was more of like a social experiment in the side in my opinion.
I want to congratulate again, TeamSoCal Laura and Tyler for wining the race (And would still say they look good together). It was a close call with Jenny and Jelani, since their taxi driver didn't know where to go.
I also have to congratulate Hayley and Blair, Blair especially. Sorry, Hayley's nonstop nagging and complaints got into me, and Blair had such patience for that. I hope Hayley isn't like that at work, I don't want a nurse who talks too much when I want most of the time to rest. (Well that's just me). Karma got Hayley in the end, before she's all "You don't listen to me, blah, blah." So when Blair just looked like he had it, he just made her do all the decisions, she's like "We're a team, blah blah, make decision, blah blah" Oh so now you want him to make decisions... Blair needs a big pat in the back and a keg of beer being able to stand the nagging/complaints during the race.
Continue reading...
I have been since day 1 (episode 1) been rooting for the blind dates. First of all it's because it's a win or lose situation. 2 people seeking a relationship (or love for that matter) joined the race, it's like a recipe for disaster relationship wise. We all know (TAR fans...) how stressful being on show, and the fact that you're joining the race with someone you don't know and have to learn how to (sorry I forgot the word) be with that person.
The first part of the race is that blind date couple's are kickin' ass, meaning they took most of the top place. You have to admire, for some of them, knowing that they didn't find sparks or whatever they're looking for their blind date or dream person, concentrated on the race. I forgot who said it or from where I read it before, but s/he said that being in a blind date vs couple is to their advantage because since they aren't in a preexisting relationship they don't have anything to lose (except for the million dollars if they lose). For couple's the stakes are higher because after the race their relationship may either blossom or break.
I was a bit disappointed in one team that the other person, knowing yea s/he isn't loosing anything, didn't finish the competition or lost the will or whatever. Ugh, it's the Amazing Race, it's not a dating show, though they did try their hand at it. It was more of like a social experiment in the side in my opinion.
I want to congratulate again, TeamSoCal Laura and Tyler for wining the race (And would still say they look good together). It was a close call with Jenny and Jelani, since their taxi driver didn't know where to go.
I also have to congratulate Hayley and Blair, Blair especially. Sorry, Hayley's nonstop nagging and complaints got into me, and Blair had such patience for that. I hope Hayley isn't like that at work, I don't want a nurse who talks too much when I want most of the time to rest. (Well that's just me). Karma got Hayley in the end, before she's all "You don't listen to me, blah, blah." So when Blair just looked like he had it, he just made her do all the decisions, she's like "We're a team, blah blah, make decision, blah blah" Oh so now you want him to make decisions... Blair needs a big pat in the back and a keg of beer being able to stand the nagging/complaints during the race.
Tuesday, April 14, 2015
I'm crazy...
I thought a 3 continuous shift was crazy enough, this time I did 4shifts straight. My legs still has to recuperate. I know some does more like having 2 jobs, working straight days but it's really taxing to the body and mind.
I'm just a regular folk not a superhero or have massive amount of energy. I really admire those who work like that and get sometimes not enough pay to survive.
That aside I'm happy my boxes arrive to help with charge up my dwindling energy.
Thursday, February 26, 2015
Ranting... #3738261929×766
So I was supposed to admit tonight. It's really a lot of work because on top of that you have your other patients. The first one changed his mind and wanted to come in the morning, the other one still no show. Ugh I just want it done and get over it lol!
What's annoying is that when they do come now I don't have time to do everything x.x and have to stay over (damn) to finish everything. Geh! Or what happened the last time, s/he arrived 30 mins before change of shift. Nice one ER...
Sunday, December 14, 2014
Work vs Chores
Ugh really I'm not a fan of household chores, I can do my shift with little rest but I'll still be alive in the end. But chores... no x.x I'm one of those people who would rather pay do it. Hahaha! Well eithrr that or not really motivated to clean. This is my fail attempt with tidying up my bed xD
Sunday, November 16, 2014
HappyNervousSad
Mostly what I've felt today aside from the normal body pains and aches, and headache. Happy because I've been applying to hospitals, I followed up she said she'll be calling either yesterday or today...
Nervous because of the wait, am I hired or not. It's either thank you for applying, better luck next time. Or, congratulations you're hired time to start a new chapter in work life.
Sad because working at SNF where majority of the patients are in long term care, and someone expires, can't help but make you feel sad, and makes you wanna cry. She's like your adopted granma even with her always confused state and incoherent mumbling, slapping you for no reason at all. So tiny and light, that my 5 foot self can carry her back to bed. I'll miss my halmeoni... She's in heaven now, with all the angels...
Saturday, May 10, 2014
Hopefully things go well...
Last weekend I started my regular scheduled work with the skilled nursing side (SNF) of our facility. No more random schedules and being stuffed here and there. I'll miss the sub acute side though, things are much easier since we have a supervisor and don't have a lot to worry about while on duty. Since they're a for profit company, they only have 2 nurses on the floor on the snf, and one of the is the supervisor. Gah! Also they'll just accept any patients as long as they can pay. /wrist
IMHO they need 3 nurses and 4 CNAs with the current census they have but no, they're like "fuck you nurses deal with it" I am slowly getting discouraged with the way things are, I guess I'm just too idealistic sometimes. Either I'm not right for this job or the facility isn't the kind of work environment I should be in. Yet again, I am on a job hunt, hopefully find the place I would thrive in.
The past few days I've been thinking if this was the right profession for me, or I would rather have a 9 to 5 job, go home and not think about it and just relax. It's very tempting. But I'm not getting any younger thinking about these stuff.
*sighs* nothing motivates me now ): I feel numb and dead...
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