Book peeves

So again from the previous post about Kindle Unlimited and Nook. I don't know how the Kindle works but I'm guessing at least the author gets something from their books being borrowed, but buying it outright ebook or paperback I guess they get more from it (???), maybe.
Anyway one of the few things I like about the ebook borrowing from Kindle is connected to my pet peeve regarding how the story is written.
For those who do read, you know that there are different types or something like that on how the author write the story. I'm not really a fan of the his or her view type where the character narrates the whole chapter. It kinda annoys me at times so knowing that the book is written that way I don't waste money and just return/don't read the book at all.
Sometimes (or maybe most of the times) I don't really like simpering heroines... they don't sound much of a heroines to me but useless characters xD! I don't mind damsels in distress but not weak and stupid. X.x that after reading 1 or 2 chapters, if ever I do have the paperback I would return it. Thankfully some ebooks offer the first chapters to read.
Ah and because my thought are disorganized atm I'll jump to the fact that because of the books I'm ruined to any man hahaha!!!
Yes I know they're just books but it makes me sad that they're not real and if ever there are men like them... zomgah where are they hiding?
With that I go start reading again xD

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Pocketbook addict

I really started young, maybe around 9 or 10 years old. I remember a bit that I started with Sweet Valley Kids, then High, then Nancy Drew, Hardy Boys, R.L Stine's books (which for a kid is effin' creeptastic) and from there romance novels (which is bad considering I was a teen hahaha!!!)
I never get tired of reading them, maybe one story is the same from another author but still engaging for me the same.
I've read thousands already, seriously my Nook alone mostly have a thousand already and that doesn't include the ones I've bought and borrowed through the years.
One of the few regrets I have is that when I was still in high school I've read this book probably published during the 90's by Diamond Publishing ( os something like that). It's a series, much like Sweet Valley about school life of girls in a dormitory. My school library had 2 or 3 of the books but sadly not all of them. I want to finish the series but again it was years ago, I don't remember the title just the premise of the series, I tried googling the company (sadly again...) it was already closed and not a lot of information is available through it. Sadly, sadly, sadly not a super detective like Drew and the Hardy bros.
Anywho, I have most probably abused Nook in a way that I have been spending too much per month. The stupid me didn't acknowledge that it's competitor Amazon Kindle had introduced their unlimited books for 10 buckaroo per month... ugh that's waaaaaay less than what I spend.
I'll talk about support and pet peeves maybe in my next post if I remember but for now I'm feeling happy... elated... and much more xD that I could afford my addiction to books. Hey :P at least it's not drugs or some other vice xD

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Another road block or a bump

I guess when the time that you don't feel like going to work, that is the time you try to find a new one. I love doing what I'm doing but my current one leaves me battered both physically and mentally, and leaves my patience glass to always empty every shift. Some can handle this but I'm feeling like jumping to something else less demanding.
They kept telling me I'm young but I feel ancient. No motivation to work, not counting the fact that almost everyone needs a paycheck.
I still have a contract with my work ): sadly a couple more months... Hopefully I got a transfer soon...

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Left or Right?

Since I'm right handed, doing things with my left hand is a bit work for my brain and challening. I had to constantly remind ( and the slight discomfort with the right) my self to use left.
2/5 of my siblings are left handed, 3/5 right and 2/3 are ambidextrous, then we have weird quirks.
Eldest son is mostly left, too left handed it's challenging for him to drive, but if he concentrate he does write using his right. Second son, is right handed but he dribbles with left during basketball games. Third son is right handed but he's the other ambidextrous, doesn't need to concentrate or anything, and holds 2 pens, one on each hand. Came in handy since we grew up without the aide of laptops at school. When his right hand is tired taking notes, he'll just switch. (Jelly!!! Our teachers and professors loves to make us write tons of stuff)
Eldest daughter is right, but tends to lean on the left. Second daughter is left handed, and too left handed too. Didn't learn how to write with her right.
Why some of my brothers are ambi, is because of how they were raised. My aunt would make them us their right hand because it's "not normal". Since sister is the youngest by a chunk of years, she didn't experience much of being raised by our aunt and even though my Mom kept denying it, we know she was and still is spoiled.
Right now, I envy my third brother. With my injury things I normally do well are slower and doesn't inflict pain.
[So much left and right, I reached my quota. Haha]

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Absurdity...

Called in sick today because I injured my wrist, sprained or pulled a muscle... whatever... I can type and move my fingers but it hurts when I put pressure or lift things. Yes even opening/closing doors.
I heal fast, as long as I get to rest the wrist. It's like having leg cramps, lasts awhile but I'll be fine after a day or two. I'm only asking to be called off tonight since after this shift I'll be back Sunday or Monday night, just enough days to get it back to working condition. I'm not asking to be off for 3 days. I find it absurd to have a MD's note for a day and it's giving me a headache thinking about it.
Seriously that charge nurse has some power issues. I like to rub in her face my doctor's note when I see her next.

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Brain's trippin

Ugh 3 times I woke up, 3 times due to bad dreams. Not necessarily nightmares, just bad and weird dreams. Lol! My brain's trippin' from stress.
First off it was due to a haunted house and for a lack of a better description... monsters.
Second one, this I don't remember much since I was like, "WTF, I'm going back to sleep"
Third was being in The Amazing Race with some random partner with weird rules... to get our first clue we have to choose a side of a wall and follow it to our clue. Instead of having equal level of difficulty or something like that one is a shorter choice and another long. After getting our clue with a list of stuff, we ran to some place +.+ change of scenery to be in my old high school and in school uniforms, with a loud group of girls with no respect to the ongoing classes with freaking slippery floors... In my head, (in my dreams... lol) Move it along bitches this is a competition, stop being lazy assess... then I woke up

Weird thing, just because it's not really the norm is that I remember some of these dreams.

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The stuff of nightmares..

I'm gonna put it here before I forget.
My brain went nuts and went Jurassic Park and Resident Evil on me while sleeping.
So we we're  (I don't know but the folks in with) living in a simple house when the alert came in, that wild animals got out. First we barricaded the house against them but then I remembered that we have two vehicles more of like armored cars equipped with weaponry of some sort. I took one and have one passenger with me. [Special cameo of Mr. and Mrs. Smith, who took the other car] Then out of the blue we ended up in front of a white mansion with glazed tinted window  (?) full of infected folks and my armored car turned into a one person armored suit.
some reason or another, I felt like I was working in that place trying to find cure. My passenger went stupid on me and annoyed an infected which in turn got agitated and ran after him and I have to save his ass against the infected.  Then I woke up because I was angry due to his stupidity.

Before that I remember my other dream with me being a mermaid with a merman husband and we can turn our fishtails into legs at whim. No Ursula needed. Or magic clams... shells...

Yeah unconscious mind had fun and I remembered it, and putting it  down here before I forget.
Even though I woke up abruptly, I felt like I had good sleep.

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What's the difference?

Work called and I knew that it's my turn to be called off. Alas, no, they wanted to ask me if I wanted to be flexed off, meaning instead of me coming at 7pm, they want me to come in at 11pm.
Okay it'll be hectic with me coming during the changed of shift, still have to give meds at 9pm, change patients and so on. Then the other stuff. If I come in at 2300 I just do the other stuff...
To me not really a lot of difference when it comes to work. I still have to come to work, then I'd rather not lose 4 hours over it.
My gut is quiet and not feeling panicky. I'm now worried. Heh yea gut works the other way around.
Hoping for a quiet shift tonight.

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Tiring week

The week is not yet over but I'm tired already. Schedule's full this week and I'm dead tired. My feet feels numb and painful. instead of me getting some rest even for a day I haven't or rather the day where I planned to rest got ruined by someone who doesn't act like his age. To make it short he's really an idiot. He's doesn't use that brain. It's really frustrating to deal with him most of the times. I admit I'm to practical but that keeps me sane and feel secure. I've outgrown the days when I don't think or not plan things ahead. Having a safety net or plan b keeps me less stressed because I know there's something I can fall back to.
Times like now,  today,  you have to learn how to control. Less of this, learn to say no. It maybe hard in the beginning but is something that is important to know and do. You can't forever live that way. People aren't always going to be there for you,  maybe that sounds harsh for some but when times get rough those people you call friends will choose what's important to them and chances are you're not on the top of their list.
It's really sad, he's hardworking but he doesn't know how to manage well. More sad, is that I have to deal with it because he doesn't listen. He refuses to listen. 
I pray that it doesn't last long. It adds more to my stress and me closer to death.

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Master Chef S6 E1 to E5

So after 5 episodes, I'm still happy that it's back. I mean the Juniors are awesome but the thrill and drama's on this version.
They didn't show the auditions as with the past seasons. But wow first episode claws are coming out so is erm... their unique personalities.
Welcome the new judge Christina Tosi as Joe steps down from the MCUS panel, I think he's still a judge on one of the franchise. Ms Tosi is a pastry chef and co-owner of Momofuku Milk Bar. I think that adding an odd one out balances the judging panel. Both Graham Elliot and Gordon are chefs but Joe being the odd one out is a restauranteur who's on the business side of things, tho he knows his stuff. This time Christina comes from, let's admit, the side that's been deemed stereotyped to. Just because there pastry chef they don't now how to cook except bake and make desserts. I hope she proves people wrong. So far her personality is showing to be sweet  (lol compared to Gordon) but the past episode she's showing a bit of her claws xD
First of the bat, 20 homecooks thought that, well they're in the top 20 now to compete. But as we all know these shows will try to throw in something to make it more challenging and get more viewers  (haha). So they got another 20 home cooks to vie for the top spots. A pair, or a couple depending on their style of cooking were made to compete at each other. Baker vs baker, chicken dish vs chicken dish and so on. In the end the judges chose 22 to compete. I was actually rooting for Taylor vs Katrina battle. For one I didn't like Katrina's attitude. Crying, frustrated look just annoys the hell outta me. Taylor for me is someone who still have the potential to learn and grow more. Have that confidence, drive and humble attitude to go further. Aside from the fact that if you push him he's going to push back harder and kick someone's ass. Sadly at the all or nothing battle to the top 22 he lost to Stephen and Shelly.
From then to the lastest episode 5, 4 from the top 22 have been eliminated. Double elimination from the top 22, Briana and Mateo got eliminated.
Highlights not so much for me but damn personalities really makes a difference here. Rocker Derrick really got that suave angst thing going on but he's overconfident and hopefully it doesn't kick him in the ass later on. Farmer Stephen is someone I disliked after being an ass. At first knowing what he does, I'm like much respect but after showing America how much of a potty mouth and an ass he is, I'm like wtf k bye. He also reminds me of a Bipolar in a manic stage. Christopher, the Asian guy has some issues too. He's always on the defense, to the point that it's way out of the line and totally embarrassing. Tommy (sorry it's obvious and if I'm offending anybody) gay and fabulous, please tone down the bitchy attitude.
First team challenge for the top 20, Kerry and Darah became team captain chosen by the judges. Each team have to prepare a burger and fish and chips where they have to serve theme park visitors (Knotts Berry Farm). There weren't any much vote of confidence with Kerry vs Darah due to his HR ofc background, but from what I've seen on this episode he did much better than Darah (theme park employee).
Kerry's red team was able to plan and delegate quickly so they can start their prep. While Darah's blue team struggled with her laissez-faire leadership.
To quickly shorten this one, Kerry's team struggled with the demand but was able to pull through. Kudos to Nick for stepping up.
Darah's team with her weak leadership skills and weak team skills x.x whom I've seen cheering... CHEERING!!! her team on... wtf, gurl do some work, chop or prep something, you're personality's not helping at this moment. They struggle because nobody's helping poor (I'm being sarcastic here too at the same time) Katrina. Ask... for... help... Tommy isn't helping either, running his mouth instead of helping to speed things up. Kudos to Claudia for stepping up for this team and Derrick for also pulling through.
Even though the cheeseburger got more cheers than red's burger, knowing how much of a train wreck blue team is. My guess was right with the red team winning.
Elimination challenge was cringe worthy. Darah made me hate her. Really saving the asses of mates that aren't deserving to be saved for half of your votes? Not saving Derrick and Katrina? Girl's blind. The personality of the ones she chose didn't help them to win. Why? Production was slow, they missed more plates. And from the people who got interviewed, clearly they loved their burger version and their beer batter. The only good decision she did was not saving herself. In the end she lost the cinnamon challenge and was eliminated.
My viewpoint with team challenges with group this big, get an assistant or second in command. It's a team challenge, do things that'll save your team from elimination not lead them into it. If your second in command see something you don't that person can delegate or step in to that role. Communication from front to back. What happened to Katrina was that she has the tendency to shut down especially when pressured and/or stressed.
Nick, Claudia and Derrick did well as they stepped up, and did their best to save their team. They we're speaking up, but sadly for the blue team it was going into deaf ears.
(Like I said these are my views, I only have an inkling for stressful situations but not with their particular dilemma)

This latest episode crabs were the mystery challenge. And is indeed a challenge for Hetal whose a vegetarian. I for one don't know how to cook or even know how to eat crab properly thus I'll usually opt for the crab cakes lol. 1/3 I guess with most chose to go that route and it looks really delish. Jesse, so far someone whom I have not noticed since this latest episode made noise with his crab pot sticker (sorry i forgot) soup and won this round. As per usual he got advantages and one of them is not cooking from the elimination. Which (duh) saves him to the next episode.
Quite dramatic on how they revealed the star ingredient for the elimination challenge which turns  out to be corn. Jesse's other advantage is to pick for the other remaining contestants on how they will prepare this start ingredient. The option is between sweet and savory. Jesse  picked savory for the strong competitors in which Gordon noted that these competitors might overthink what they have to prepare on the other hand Jesse chose sweet for the weak competitors in which he hoped to weed them out.
In this challenge Stephen and Shelly won and would lead the next team challenge. While Justin, in my opinion let his anger pull him down. He let Jesse's mind play got to him.
Seriously this shit is going better lol! Can't wait for the next episode.

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Master Chef Season 6 Premiere

Catching up again as usual but damn was so excited. As soon as I got home, I turned on the tv and got the recorder play the show.
First, I'm going to miss Joe and well miss his sassiness (haha yea) and his battling ego with the Graham and Gordon
During the top 20 vs top 20 (Can't they just say top 40? X.x), same style/main ingredient, there were some during the battle that I wanted to win on how their dish looks but since I can't exactly taste their food... and well their personalities hahaha!!
Just that battle between the bakers/desserts, I opted for Jill. And the last 20 vs 20 battle, I went for Shelley.
And for some reason or another I feel like I'm just repeating something but if you joined a competition as stressful as this and you're going to black out and answer something like "...should be there, ... maybe with," like you don't know what's in your food. I'm scared. That battle, I wanted Taylor to win because he had the talent, confidence, drive and strength. Not referring to him being am athlete but his competition during the battle, I don't think she'll last and would prolly crumble from the stress. I guess it's not his time yet, still young, still have a lot to learn but that's be saying some typical bullshit he should try again and get into that top 20.
Thankfully from the bottom 20, the judges picked 6 deserving ones to go at it again. But argh!!! They'll only chose 2!!
Anyway at least one of those 3 I mentioned got into the top 22, Shelley the single mom and Stephen the home gardner... who really looks like David Cross' lost brother. They maybe related *shocked!!!* Hey last season I didn't know that Leslie and Melissa Joan Hart are related.
Well, can't wait for the next episode since my Amazing Race season 26 ended already.
Amd woohoo on top of that *squeals.. ugh pig!* So You Can Think You Can Dance is back back back!!!
Just a side note on this long long post. Sad that Chelsea Hightower isn't in DWTS and no explanation why... at least my fave Cheryl gave a reason. Chelsea just disappeared...

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The Amazing Race Season 26 Finale!!!

During the time I was watching the episode I have to admit that I forgot that I had a migrane xD! Talk about distraction right? xD
I have been since day 1 (episode 1) been rooting for the blind dates. First of all it's because it's a win or lose situation. 2 people seeking a relationship (or love for that matter) joined the race, it's like a recipe for disaster relationship wise. We all know (TAR fans...) how stressful being on show, and the fact that you're joining the race with someone you don't know and have to learn how to (sorry I forgot the word) be with that person.
The first part of the race is that blind date couple's are kickin' ass, meaning they took most of the top place. You have to admire, for some of them, knowing that they didn't find sparks or whatever they're looking for their blind date or dream person, concentrated on the race. I forgot who said it or from where I read it before, but s/he said that being in a blind date vs couple is to their advantage because since they aren't in a preexisting relationship they don't have anything to lose (except for the million dollars if they lose). For couple's the stakes are higher because after the race their relationship may either blossom or break.
I was a bit disappointed in one team that the other person, knowing yea s/he isn't loosing anything, didn't finish the competition or lost the will or whatever. Ugh, it's the Amazing Race, it's not a dating show, though they did try their hand at it. It was more of like a social experiment in the side in my opinion.
I want to congratulate again, TeamSoCal Laura and Tyler for wining the race (And would still say they look good together). It was a close call with Jenny and Jelani, since their taxi driver didn't know where to go.
I also have to congratulate Hayley and Blair, Blair especially. Sorry, Hayley's nonstop nagging and complaints got into me, and Blair had such patience for that. I hope Hayley isn't like that at work, I don't want a nurse who talks too much when I want most of the time to rest. (Well that's just me). Karma got Hayley in the end, before she's all "You don't listen to me, blah, blah." So when Blair just looked like he had it, he just made her do all the decisions, she's like "We're a team, blah blah, make decision, blah blah" Oh so now you want him to make decisions... Blair needs a big pat in the back and a keg of beer being able to stand the nagging/complaints during the race.

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The Amazing Race Fan

Dang I have to admit I have been a fan of the series for a while but I haven't been there or rather seen the beginning seasons, only started when flags were already red and yellow.
Thanks to Hulu I'm trying to watch those. Man, they've come a long way from season 1. Looks so raw, and well unpolished compared to now which is I guess more challenging. Doubt if those who were in season 1 can so what the current competitors are doing now.
I have to admit I'm highly annoyed with half of the teams in season 1. XD!! Still on ep4 tho, gotta hate those damn commercials from Hulu. The fuck, old season and you're paying for the service. I understand if its like current and 1 season back, but the beginning? Damn....

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Late again

So far, what's been happening at work is that I get home super late. There's so many things we do at the graveyard shift that we are left doing it until hours later after we clocked out. I'm thankful that I have a job but always too much work to do, so little time and the deadline always looming in your face.
Now I know why folks from the subacute doesn't want to, even to float on SNF because of the work load on one person. And the fact that they're all out of bed, in their wheelchairs running away from you.
I'm always looking forward to my days off, unfortunately even on my days off I have important things to do but misses them because I'm still dead from the previous shift. Need a change of scenery.
Case manager isn't for me, so is SNF.
I should have stayed on accounting, the stress would be less because I'm not taking home work. What I mean by that is that you get home relax and not think about work.

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